Well so I'm feeling like a bad blogger these days. For a number of reasons.
1) I'm off topic. I'm not really doing so much blogging about the life of a young lawyer. I mean, I'm blogging some about my own life, but my mental space is a lot more on the "life" part these days than the "lawyer" part. The stuff I'm jazzed or mad about at work is generally too hard to blog about without breaching confidences I don't want to breach, and I'm sort of out of observations about the profession just now.
2) I'm leaving a lot out. I got a nice compliment from a reader a while back saying he liked the blog because it is "personal without being intimate." I like that; it's what I want to be. I hope readers get a sense of me -- a true sense -- but I'm not interested in blog therapy or a complete airing of my (or anyone in my life's) dirty laundry. Anyway, you guys know I've just gone through a breakup, but you don't know why or the way my daily feelings about that play themselves out. It's kind of a strange membrane, the wall between my private self and my quasi-public blog self. Sorting through all my feelings, and then, heaven help me, dating again someday, is taking up a fair amount of my mental real estate. Because I like to write about what I'm thinking about, part of it is going to leak out. But a lot of it is none of your business. So I'm going to fumble along here and am not sure whether I'll get the voice or tone right.
3) Blog jealousy. Four, count 'em, four of my real-life favorite people have expressed some kind of jealousy or resentment towards this blog. Huh? I don't fully get it, but it makes me feel like I'm doing something wrong. I think it has something to do with the membrane between private and public. People who want to feel like they're in the "inner circle" resent the blog if I've posted something to it before I've had a chance to talk about the same thing with them. A legitimate complaint? I dunno, maybe. Hard to know. Other folks have said they feel like by reading the blog they are 'spying' on me. Other times people want to talk about a blog topic and I've sort of gotten it out of my system already. Is blogging making me a bad friend? I don't want it to.
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