Today I started off happy and was a little bit sad in the middle and ended up, well, who knows how it will end up but for now it's kind of in between. Closer to happy than sad, I think.
Today was the first day in a long long long time that I've been able to be by myself, without appointments or obligations or visitors, all day. I've been pretty hungry for time alone. Somehow I've been overbooking my days with meetings and appointments and have been growing a little desperate for some down time. Today was a good beginning.
I took myself to see the Harry Potter movie in the middle of the day and it was really good. I haven't been to a real Hollywood movie at a movie theater since December when I went to see Master and Commander. It felt self-indulgent and escapist and wonderful to lose myself in this magical fantasy world. I should go to more movies. It's fun.
I took myself to the yacht club to sit by the water and watch boats and think about everything and nothing but there was a big cocktail party of insurance executives happening on on the upper deck and the background rumble of insurance executive joviality was not the ambiance that I wanted. So I went instead to the Audubon sanctuary near my house where I hunkered down by a pond and looked at frogs and tadpoles in various stages of becoming frogs and some dragonflies and waterbugs and a whole bunch of goldfinches and some snails and a small dark brown critter. I listened to the birds and smelled the meadow and thought about how much fun it would be to spend a day catching frogs with a buddy or two under the age of 10.
I took myself to a coffee shop and drank tea with cream and watched the hipsters being hip and wrote pages and pages in my freewriting notebook, and even more pages and pages in my journal with all my to-do lists and current observations and phone numbers and practical goals.
Sounds blissful . . . can't wait til the bar is over 2 days from now and I can do the same!
Posted by: Glib Gurl | July 26, 2004 at 09:03 AM