More Updates

1) The other thing to do when your heart is broken is spend a little money.  I just stopped by Borders and picked up two books, a photo album (for Belle), and 4 CDs.  Yahoo. 

2) I am definitely becoming a coach.  My team sailed wonderfully today; we qualified for the New England team racing championships next weekend, and I feel delighted.  I'm noticing now that my mood correlates to the team's performance.  It's not dependent on it, but I feel preoccupied and depressed and irritable after a bad practice or a lackluster regatta, and psyched and confident and proud after a good day on the water. 

3) I am permitting myself two cups of coffee a week now.  Generally I have one cup on a Sunday and one cup in the middle of the week.  I daydream and mull and ponder when I am going to use my mid-week cup, and the possibility that today might be the day I decide to get it puts me in an optimistic and hopeful mood even on days I don't decide to have it.  I can definitely feel an effect when I drink my (medium) cup.  (I do not permit myself to think about getting a large.)  I feel braver, happier, more confident and strong.  More energetic.  I sing along to the radio.  I tap my hands on the steering wheel.  I'm more outgoing, a little more adolescent.  I'm perhaps a little jittery.  I'm slightly more impatient, and closer to irritability.  There's a bit of a flutter in my stomach.  I am amped up, and it feels great, but ever so slightly dangerous or illicit. 

4) I have not forgotten about the all requests.  There are several still pending.  Be patient with me, please. 

Comments

[Dan]

I think that 1 is a good step. Congrats on 2....As for 3, I think that given everything that has happened, a little coffee is a good thing. As for 4, you deserve a bit of slack, especially given all that you've been through as of recent. :D

as for 2: you already are a coach. what you are becoming is more invested in your job and your new co-workers/family/sailors. which is great. with everything going on its great to have a group for sharing successes and frustrations.

[Tillerman]

Congratulations to the Polar Bears and their coach on winning the Fowle Qualifier.